Those were the days when I was just shifted to Hyderabad from Mumbai. Leaving my life, friends back in Mumbai, I reached Hyderabad to join a new organization. Gradually life started taking it's path but the initial days were full with loneliness specially on weekends. On one fine evening after spending the whole day with books, I was feeling very alone and just I wanted to go away from myself. Where to go, what to do and if somewhere to go then with whom. I just came out of my flat and saw a tree just opposite to my building. Many cranes were celebrating the evening there, some alone and some with thier mates. Tree was all alone and finding it's pleasure out of those little birds.
Life is all like that. We all are ultimately alone in our hearts and trying to go away from it. For that we make relationships, join societies. Most of the religions, our festivals we celebrate, concept of family are made to bring a feeling of fraternity so that we can happily complete our journey and never feel alone . But ultimately we all are alone only. In this mood, I wrote some words that day (in hindi). A discussion between my mind(man) and me -
Man ye chanchal bhaga jaye
Sandhya ke pal milna chahe
Vivash huin kaise samjhaun use
Ekant mita ke kidher chalun
Main bolun teri kya seemayen
Do pal tujhse na baitha jaye
Chal chal teri ye bhasa hain
Ekant mita ke kidher chalun
Wo bola dekh baharen hain
Suraj ki tapati dhoop dhali
Ye mand sameer ke jhonke hain
Ekant kaha main sath chalun
Wo bola bahar jara nikal
Apni parchhai se door alag
Sab kuchh to hain tere jaisa
Ekant kaha main sath chalun
Maan kaha bahar nikala
Saamne tha ek ped khadda
Panchhee ke kalrav ko jana
Ekant kaha sab ek bhala
Sath pawan main bah ye chala
Swyam samunder khota main to chala
Nischhal ho man anand bhara
Ekant kaha sab ek bhala
Ekant kaha sab ek bhala ...
अपने कमरे के कोने में
ReplyDeleteछिपता रहता डरता रहता
मन के अंदर अँधियारा है
गलियारों में परछाई है
गहराई है कहीं छिपी हुई
बस दर्द समेटे रहता हूँ
कोई दोस्त मिले बस ऐसा अब
जो थामे हाथ अंधेरों में
फिर निकल चलें
अनजान डगर
दिल के अन्दर !!!
and this is the truth ..
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